Who am I? I’m damn sure I’m not fit for being human.
I’m the guy who measures, calculates, sees outcomes—even in human feelings. It sounds hard, but relationships are gonna end someday. So why waste the energy?
They say see the process, the journey, instead of the destiny. But I can’t. Cuz I’m a programmer—I always mind the output while writing the logic.
It’s a big nightmare being a programmer. AI’s gonna replace my job, not my mindset, right?
Mine’s gone extreme—even in simple friendship. I see probability, permutation, combination. Even a small thing makes me think of 5 million possibilities… cuz I’m a mind bender fan: watched Shutter Island, Dark, Tenet—all in a week. It’s why I have zero contacts, zero social media, and put my phone on airplane mode for 2 years.
That’s how I got into tech. I was just wondering: Why can’t I make my phone speak with me?
Then learned Python from a YT tutorial playlist, practiced in Pydroid IDE. Then ML came. I tried to learn, but dropped it because of math. I couldn’t understand—I was in 12th grade. The math formulas were weirder than my 12th textbook. Due to improper math guides, I still can’t understand the math 🙂 (now in pre-final year).
Still learning. Will post new knowledge—promise to keep it simple. You guys don’t suffer as I did.
So if you’re not a human, then what the shit are you?
- I’m just an Octopus in the Matrix, trying to escape.
- I’m just Atheist, pessimist, paradoxical—fan of Dostoevsky, Kafka, Friedrich Nietzsche.
- I don’t fit in tribes, ideologies, or “tech bro” circles. I fit in the command line.
“I am nothing to anyone – that’s my greatest freedom.” “It’s ok being sad and lonely, rather than being happy in fool’s paradise.”
Check out my Pandatern pages—it’s just my hobby experimental lab. We’ll join early-stage startups who suffer from backend issues. I’ll code the best backend. If needed, I’ll sponsor hosting, DB, API, server—whatever stack you need.
Current Tentacles
- Learning Nim, Gleam, Elixir—because concurrency and systems need better tools.
- Learning ML—trying to make my small ML model with open datasets & Google Colab.
- Dart for app development—Flutter for the few things that need a screen.
If you’re also tired of pretending to be fish or rat, stick around. We’ll build strange, honest things together.
– an Octopus in the Matrix 🐙