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2026-05-12T00:00:00Z

Who am I? I’m damn sure i’m not fit for being human.
Because i’m the guy who measures, calculates, sees outcomes – in human feelings.
I know it sounds hard, kind of. We all know about relationships – they’re gonna end someday. So why waste my energy, my efforts?

But in that case we should see the process, the journey, instead of the destiny.

But I can’t. Cuz I’m a programmer – I always mind the output while writing the logic.

So it’s a big nightmare of being a programmer. AI’s gonna replace my job, not my mindset, right?

…

As I said, i’m not fit. mine’s gone extreme – even in simple friendship too. I see probability, permutation, combination – even a small thing makes me think of a million possibilities (tbh 4 or 5) … Cuz I’m a mind-bender fan: watched Shutter Island, Dark, Tenet – all in a week. so maybe i’m the only person with zero contacts, zero social media, puts his phone on airplane mode for 2 years.

that’s how i got into tech. I was just wondering: why can’t i make my phone speak with me?
Then learned Python from a YouTube tutorial playlist, Practiced in pydroid ide.

Then ML came. I tried to learn, but dropped it Because of math. i couldn’t understand – I was in 12th grade. the math formulas were weirder than my 12th textbook. due to improper math guides, i still can’t understand the math 🙂 (now in pre-final year).

Still learning. Will post new knowledge – Promise to keep it simple. You guys don’t suffer as i did.

So if you’re not a human, then what the shit are you?

i’m just an Octopus in the Matrix, trying to escape.
i’m just Atheist, pessimist, paradoxical – fan of Dostoevsky, Kafka, Friedrich Nietzsche.
i don’t fit in tribes, ideologies, or “tech bro” circles. i fit in the command line.

my fav quotes:

“i am nothing to anyone – that’s my greatest freedom.”
“it’s ok being sad and lonely, rather than being happy in fool’s paradise.”

Check out my pandatern pages – it’s just my hobby experimental lab.
We’ll join early-stage startups who suffer from backend issues. i’ll code the best backend. if needed, i’ll sponsor hosting, db, api, server – whatever stack you need.

Current Tentacles

learning nim, gleam, elixir – Because concurrency and systems need better tools.
Learning ML – trying to make my small ml model with open datasets & google colab.
dart for app development – flutter for the few things that need a screen.

If you’re also tired of pretending to be fish or rat, stick around.
we’ll build strange, honest things together.

– an Octopus in the Matrix 🐙

Valt Aoi

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So if you’re not a human, then what the shit are you?

Current Tentacles